Monday 8 March 2010

Today in Universtiy

As I have already mentioned about the prayer meeting. Today I was together with the other fellow student praying together our usual topic 'mission', She read Isaiah 6:8 and suddenly I remembered the word that was spoken to me in Blutour. This was the same verse that I heard and I realized why I am so excited to go back and serve those who are hidden and lost in my place. Then I told everyone to pray for me and the third time in my life I felt I was forced to pronounce something that I don't understand my tongue was jut moving and I was speaking. I felt so happy and relief. I think Lord is speaking to me and he want to use me. I surrender you all. My lord you are the ruler of my life.

Friday 5 March 2010

Walking with Jesus my words...

Paul and Peter are my one of my best model for my life I can say. When ever I see my life turning back and I see that sorts of unstability in my thoughts and decision and then I feels like being Peter. Unstable. And when I move forward and struggle with the the sin around and as Paul has said in Roman 7:7-25. (In Nepali Bible it is written struggle with sin) I feel exactly like the Paul and sometime it even makes me pull back. But Despite of this I am crawling always forward and I am really thankful to God that now I am in the best time with the God that I have ever experienced in my life. I can feel that joy inside me, the presence of The Holy Spirit. I can truely feel his loves on my life. I hope the verse above is encouragement for everone of us. So I am just putting it down.

Law and Sin (Struggle with sin in Nepali)
Shall we say, then, that the Law itself is sinful? Of course not! But it was the Law that made me know what sin is. If the law had not said, "Do not desire what belongs to someone else," I would not have known such a desire. But by means of that commandment sin found its chance to stir up all kinds of selfish desires in me. Apart from law, sin is a dead thing. I myself was once alive apart from law; but when the commandment came, sin sprang to life, and I died. And the commandment which was meant to bring life, in my case brought death. Sin found its chance, and by means of the commandment it deceived me and killed me.
So then, the Law itself is holy, and the commandment is holy, right, and good. But does this mean that what is good caused my death? By no means! It was sin that did it; by using what is good, sin brought death to me, in order that its true nature as sin might be revealed. And so, by means of the commandment sin is shown to be even more terribly sinful.
The Conflict in Man
We know that the Law is spiritual; but I am a mortal man, sold as a slave to sin. I do not understand what I do; for I don't do what I would like to do, but instead I do what I hate. Since what I do is what I don't want to do, this shows that I agree that the Law is right. So Ia am not really the one who does this thing; rather it is the sin that lives in me. I know that good does not live in me-that is, in my human nature. For even though the desire to do good is in me, I am not able to do it. Idon't do the good I want to do; instead, I do the evil that I do not want to do. If I do what I don't want to do, this means that I am no longer the one who does it; instead, it is the sin that lives in me.
So I find that this law is at work; when I want to do what is good, what inner being delights in the law of God. But I see a different law at work in my body-a law that fights against the law which my mind approves of. It makes me a prisoner to the law of sin which is at work in my body. What an unhappy man I am! Who will rescue me form this body that is taking me to death? Thanks be to God, who does this through our Lord Jesus Christ!
This, then, is my condition; on my won I can serve God's law only with my mind, while my human nature serves the law of sin.

I am really thankful to the God who is always near me when I am in difficult time. I love my dearst pappa in Heaven who loves me more than anything in the world. Holy Spirit come to me be with me. Amen
Your loving son
Rajen.

Tuesday 2 March 2010

From the core of my heart

God you know me better than anything else in the world. You have known me before I was imaged in my mother womb. You know my futer and past. This true that I have heart for you and I remember just now someone have told me "I am no other than human being" so I have many weakneses in my life mistakes in my decisions. Lord you know me please let you make according to the will of you, make me strong I want to surrender to you all. I know you have given us the freedom of our will. Even you can't control upon our will. But if I am not able to decide the good things and make foolish decisions than I never want that sorts of freedom of my will. My father you are only one who can understand me without any explanation. So please hold me on you. Help me to surrender me on you. Help me to build up me my future along with you. Lord let me parise you overall my life. This my prayer to you form the bottom of my heart. My dearest pappa in heaven I love you as you love me. Help me please.
Your dearest son.
Rajen